About me

Some say they like predictability, but I choose the other.

I prefer to be unpredictable. I do not like my choices second-guessed. I do not like to be read easily. I do not like to be taken for granted. However, I love to pamper and go the extra mile for the people around me. So long as you have earned my trust and respect in you, I will give you my best. Some say I'm unpredictable, some say it's hard to believe I can be nice to others without any agenda. Why is this so hard to believe? Platonic relationships form a big part of my life. We are all friends with one another. Friendships are hard to form, and even harder to sustain. I've often been let down by friends, and it's no wonder that I've developed a defense mechanism, not sharing much, compartmentalizing myself. Very often, most people see only a side of me, yet thinking they've seen all. I will share, but if I believe you're sincere in the friendship and not merely lip-servicing. I will give my all to you if I feel you reciprocating and when I'm headlog in a relationship -- be it friendship or anything -- you will feel the full-fledges of it without any expectation for return except for the shared bond.

When I was young, I've questioned myself often enough to wonder if this need to be different is merely a rebellious streak in me. Through the years I've grown, this character trait has stayed. Now I know I'm just different.

Why should I be the same as everyone else? Why should I want the same things in life? Why should I chart the same milestones as everyone else?

I lead my life as a nomad at times. I appreciate solitude. I appreciate the peace and quietness of nothing and noone around me. I make my own decisions and lead my life the way I want. I'm glad I come from a family where we are given all the space to make our decisions. Growing up on my own has taught me the thought processes to think through decision-making processes, the courage to make a decision and live through it, and the ability to make split-second decisions with the consequences having already been considered. I always believe I chart my own life and I'm entitled to all the differences I want, so long as I do not regret anything.

Perhaps you can say I'm "emo". But I would rather say I'm reminiscing. I'm glad I've never regretted anything in life. If I were to die now, I would have no regrets. All my life, I have given my best at everything I do. I do everything with fervour, with passion, with the belief that everything and everyone deserves nothing less.

Per my tattoo on my ankle -- Persevere to the end. I'm not a quitter, and I won't be, until I'm utterly and irrevocably disappointed.

xoxo